Strength

When other people see me they see a love for money. I cannot Deny that such a love exists, but they don't really understand why I love money the way I do. Sometimes Ranma I think you are the only one who understands me.

Sitting here watching you train leaves me envious, it seems as if nothing can get to you.. nothing can get you down. You are so strong it has me jealous, even though I shouldn't be.

My father is happy for the windfall of money I bring to the family, it helps so much to pay our bills, but I only give him a small portion of it, the rest invest.

Kuno is convinced that I would do anything for money, after all I did sell him pictures of Akane. It wasn't like the pictures were sick or anything they were of her in training, and I didn't sell him pictures of you now did I? It must confuse him, and everyone else at school to see something I wouldn't do for money.

Do you know why I do what I do for money? Do you really know? is what I want to ask them but I already know they don't have that understanding of me. Not like you have...

You were at the Funeral.. you know..

When my mother died, in a way I died as well. Kasumi was the Strongest, and she needed to be. It took so long for her to help father to get back on his feet and then there was Akane who needed constant attention. Where did that leave me? It isn't easy being the middle child... Not old enough to stand up for yourself, but too old to be treated like a child anymore.

You know money won't die on you, I realized that very young. It's not alive and it won't treat you differently because of who you are. I can't be hurt by I won't be loved by it only to be left alone surrounded by pain and shadows.

Ranma you know why I love money so, because it can't hurt me. You were at the funeral, you held me when I couldn't stand up or hold in my tears. People didn't notice them at all, but you said they were like tiny crystals.

You know why I love money, because I'm scared of losing again. I'm scared of being loved only to lose that love so soon like my father lost mother, like I lost her as well. It's hard to open your heart to another person when you are scared like that. They don't understand it, but when I look at your eyes I know you do.

Ranma did you know... I wish with all my heart I was as strong as you, that I had the strength to love and be loved like I've dreamed.

~Nabiki Tendo